Am I bad?

Hmmm... Possibly. I'm not sure. I do know that I have a myspace profile in which I received an email from someone with the screenname of "Heather". She acts as though she knows me. She sent me a request about a week ago to add her to my friends list. But by the gods, I have NO clue who she is. She's down in Texas, and frankly, I don't know anyone in Texas... So, unless she moved from here down there, and changed everything about herself, I only know of one Heather at all - and that's NOT what she looked like... Also, she was a titch older than this one... I'm totally confused.


In other news, I applied for about 15 new jobs today while sitting at home sick with some sort of tummy something combined with a headache. I decided I might as well do something useful, so figured I'd go along to the other portions of the web (other than games on Neopets) and see about getting a job someplace I might actually enjoy.


There are new ideas for photos coming soon... In fact, it's looking like Sunday will be the day for the latest of the Curvosity shots to be tried by Fred and yours truly. He and I are having fun with the ideas we're coming up with, and I have to say, we don't yet seem to be afraid of trying ANYTHING. This one should be one of the more interesting ones, and will most likely go toward those oddities who are known as "feeders" (people who get off on watching large women eat and get larger - don't ask, it's a specific kink - I don't understand it, but I know it's there). Think chopsticks, sushi, some bondage gear and a coffee table... yeah - should be interesting...


We're also still working on the fire stuff - that's going to be a little while, mostly because my skin needs to toughen up to a point where I'm able to take the heat (as it were) of leaving fire on long enough for a photo to be taken. We'll most likely ask Mana for some help on this one, including making a video of Fred and I dancing - with fire - probably nude... Should be LOADS of fun. ;-)


In other news, I apparently am *NOT* a feminist - at least, not according to the person that Lanius posted about... Apparently, according to Yawning Lion, I'm supposed to grow body hair everywhere, eschew all male energy, avoid the temptation of pornography of any kind, and (while she didn't specify it, she eluded to it) even make sure that I no longer allow the idea of a penis to enter my thoughts but instead decide one day that I'm gonna go strictly taco... WTF?!


The reasons I feel I am not a feminist has nothing to do with her post (and yet it's there, nonetheless) - it has to do with a realistic view of life that I've had for some time now... To my way of thinking, one must have balance in everything - that's one of the reason pretty much every single species has a male and female side to them... Even those who are hermaphroditic or homosexual have some sort of female / male side to them. It's that whole yin-yang thing. It's the balance that keeps the universe from suddenly imploding (plip!).


YL's idea that one can simply wake up one day and decide to be a lesbian are unbased in logic, honestly. I'm bi-sexual. I could pretty much go either way depending on my mood. HOWEVER - it is a fact that:

A. I've known this about myself since I was 10 years old, and

B. I still like men - in fact, I like them a little more than I like women.


So, the idea that I'm going to simply wake up one day and decide "Gee, I think I'm gonna give up dick forever and ever because it's my *choice* to do so" is completely foreign and alien to me. It's not a matter of "programming" as she puts it. It's a matter of like vs. not liking quite so much... If it actually WERE programming, we wouldn't have any gay men at all. It's a matter of hard-wiring - I thought we'd already proven that in science class years ago.


As far as the religious-based ideals on feminisim, Dianics like to believe that they are the "true" feminists - they abhore the idea of a patriarchal society, shun men, support the feminist struggle, and raise women (or rather Womyn) in the ideal that men are the evil-doers of the world, and if we are to survive, we must push ourselves up over them, forcing them to do our bidding, and thus take control of the situation and make life better for everyone - except the men, but who cares about them, anyway, they're only here to do our bidding, right? After all, it's called MOTHER Earth and MOTHER Nature for a reason...


This is a really interesting idea to me, since if you move all the gender roles around, you have the exact argumenet that the Patriarchal church has had as its undercurrent for a millenia or more, ever since the the Priestesses of Ur were forced to give up their place and stand aside for a more powerful, patriarchal society... The question that I have is not which one is right, it's why must it only be the ONE that's right?


Why is it that this all has to come down to some sort of battle between the physical differences between a man and a woman? Let's get a few things straight here about the both of them before we become so openly violent and virulent about the subject of feminism (on either side) that we end up tearing our keyboards apart...

Men:

- help create life
- normally been the hunter through history
- normally have a lower body fat percentage (on average)
- normally are stronger in the upper body area
- think through a problem to its solution and provide the answer immediately
- normally more analytical thinkers
- normally has a fight instinct rather than flight instinct (depending)


Women:

- give life
- normally have been the gatherers through history
- normally have a higher body fat percentage (on average)
- normally are stronger in the mid and lower body area
- think about all possible solutions to a problem and ask for advice
- normally are more subjective thinkers
- normally have a flight instinct rather than a fight instinct (depending)


When compared on just these levels, you can see that there is an equal balance of what is needed in order to survive in the world. It no longer becomes a question of who's right and who's wrong - it becomes a question of which situation am I in and which is going to be the better-suited person for the job. There are a lot of "normally" situated through the list - that's because there are exceptions to every rule, especially in nature. Depending on the situation, depending on the persons involved... These are decisions which need to be made at that time, not prior to.


I just think that it's silly that people feel it necessary to, firstly, force an ideal upon others when it's so completely radical and anti-humanistic, and secondly, try and make other women feel bad for NOT fitting that ideal. If you feel that the way to "true womyn-hood" is to shun anything and everything male, not give birth, grow hairy legs and armpits, and never go shopping again, go for it. Let me know how it works out for you... In the meantime, the rest of us have jobs, lives, and loves in the REAL world.


~M